Thursday, January 03, 2008

Referral Time again

All we can say is that this sucks! It is so frustrating! Every time we start to feel like we are getting closer and nearing the end of this wait, every time we start to feel like being parents is within our reach that it just may happen for us... more disappointment is what we are given. The CCAA referred only 5 days this month at this rate we are still looking at another 4 or 5 months or worse who knows anymore. So another Valentines Day, Mothers Day, Easter, another Birthday and no baby. Words can't describe how hard that is for us. We have been waiting Nearly 2 years since we were LID and 2.5 years since we began this journey. In reality we have been waiting and wanting to be parents for much longer then that. Our 17 year wedding anniversary is this month and we have been trying to have a family most of those years. The struggle with infertility was gruelling and when we moved in to the adoption it was like a weight had been lifted we knew that we would be parents we just never dreamed it would take this long. ......


LK's Mom said...


Your post could be me talking. I was saying so many of the exact same things to Jonathan tonight. I can't even bring myself to post on the blog about this batch, so I know how you feel and I am right there with you. It is so disappointing, but we have to keep the faith. Our daughters are out there and they need us! I don't know why it's taking so long, but I have to feel there is a reason. Stay strong and keep praying that we get to China soon! If you ever need to talk, I'm here :)

love you!

Diane said...

Susan and Riz, All I can do is send big hugs your way! You will meet your little Sophia this year and she will be everything you ever hoped for.

Mike and Rhonda said...


All I can say is "ditto". I feel the same exact way. This has to be worse than any physical pain that labor can bring. I am so glad to have meet so many of these friends that can understand what this wait feels like.

Love ya girl,

Angela & Bryan said...


I know exactly how you feel ~ this wait is soooooo frustrating. Hopefully the next few months will fly by and we will see our babies faces soon. All I know is that it will happen.
Sending you ((big hugs)) from Canada!


Melissa said...


I just moved away from the edge myself. I felt myself getting ready to jump! You are close. It will happen, It will happen. Sophia is waiting and your day will be here!

AG'smoma said...

Right there with you, Susan! Frustrated, but trying to be patient. We just have to keep the faith and hope that these next few months pass quickly!!!

love ya!

Wendy said...

Yep! I am shaking my fists and hurling some innapropriate words into my pillow! What a shame....who knows what's going on with the CCAA lately....

Alyson & Ford said...

Susan, Mike & Rhonda and IK's mom:
Yep, ditto too. I could have written about the same post (we are on wedding anniversary #22).....Thanks!

LID 01/27/06

Kevin & Kimberly said...

Your post was like I was reading my own journal or something...I have felt everything you wrote and more.

This is so disappointing...but, you will see and meet Sophia this year!!

Hang in there...having accomplished the waiting this long, the worst is over.



Sharon said...

This batch was really hard to swallow. I've given up trying to predict a travel month, just hoping that it will happen in 2008. I'm tired of having to explain to people why I don't know when I'll hear and what the slowdown is about. Its nice to have the blogging world with friends who "get it". I think another weekend trip is in order.